Friday, March 25, 2011
(For guys) I'm wondering what this guy would probably think of me?
OKay so, there's this guy I've had in my for some time now. I feel like he has the same interest towards me but he has a girlfriend. How it all started was when I was coming to class he stood in front of me while I was trying to get around and stopped me and asked if he could have a hug. I gave him a hug and it was a really..really nice one. He smelled good too. After that we got this relationship where he would compliment me and I would recieve hugs from him. But the problem here is while recieving hugs from him I had a boyfriend. Now, I'm not the best when it comes to relationships, but I knew not to cheat. As I sat there getting hugs and enjoying them, I could never show it. The people that surrounded me knew this guy(my ex-boyfriend), and if they'd seem that I've been enjoying all these hugs...then wouldn't that corrupt into a big misunderstanding even if I showed it out of friendlyness and because I actually liked it? Well anyway it's too late now since I've already lived it the way I did. Well, after making disgusted faces and such, I guess he got the message of, "your annoying, stop touching me." Well since that's what I set my face expression as... which is dumb because during that time my THEN boyfriend and I were going through a rough time resulting into an ended relationship. But after all of this me and this guy don't really talk anymore. I can always feel/see him looking at me although I'm not quite sure if he is, he's deffintally facing my direction...A LOT. I like it. Anyway, now he having a girlfriend and all... ugh it's okay I guess I don't mind I shouldn't care because I'm the only one feeling this way right? Oh I also forgot to mention that during this hugging time in the middle he passed a note to me asking for my number, I gave it to him and asked why. He wrote back but the guy in the middle who was helping us pass notes to each other freaking through the note to me it disappeared. So I never got to know what he had to say. He probably thinks I read it and through it away...whatever it said. Cause afterwards he and his friend came over to my side of the room in the desk in front of me. no discussion was made. -.- Also I think this is really important to mention but, he's those popular kids who did 69, had handjobs done, and everyday in school everytime I see girls all over hugging him. Even when I was in the car, I saw him walk over to this other girl in my class' house...(But don't mistaken me, I'm Christian, a virgin, and the closest thing to anything "sexual" with anyone was a peck. I try to keep pure, but the temptations are so great... the sins are so pleasuring. If your not faithful like me, then advice me based on your morals and how I should keep away form this.) anyway, the reason I'm posting this question is recently he had came over to me asking if this paper beloged to me.(he was handing out papers for the teacher--we have 2 kristina's in our class.) I claimed no, and he came over again. I feel like it was an excuse to talk to me because he hadn't asked the other kristina and we used to have name tags(because my teacher is REALLLLLLY problemed in the brain -.-..ironic yes) anyway i used to sit by him where my name was written... ugh, I don't know but whatever..how do you think he feels about me now? im 15 his 16
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